fuck the internet, i didn’t even know the castle finale was on tonight and THE FIRST POST ON MY DASH SPOILED THE WHOLE FUCKING THING
so i’ve decided that sober me needs to stop making bad decisions because drunk me makes enough bad decisions for the both of us
ohhh why does drunk me always insist upon complicating things
so my mom decided to snoop and failed the lock code trying to get into my phone too many times
now i’m totally locked out of it and can’t use it
i’m likely going to have to hard reset it, which means losing pictures and apps and the text messages from when i FINALLY HAD THAT “TALK” WITH HIM ABOUT STUFF
and also that ended badly and basically it’s over
oh my god the guy i’m dating is more sensitive and insecure than a woman
and i don’t know how to deal with him like that
“just be his friend with a vagina” she tells me
I think he’s postponing the inevitable and I don’t want to wait around for it.
I don’t think anyone understands how sad and happy i am at the same time right now because feels and food respectively
I’ve hit a new low. I’m sitting on a couch at 5am eating cookie dough and doing homework. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life.
the problem is he says he doesn’t know what he wants, but i think he does know and i don’t think it’s me.
guys it’s such a weird feeling
i’m so used to being alone and craving human interaction
like celebrity crushes and shit
and now there’s actually a male human that likes me like that
and every time i think about it it’s still WEIRD.